sleepy sadness is who i am tonight
heavy tears with heavy sleepy eyes
i have useless fingers with hardly a reason
a calm brain because maybe i'll be free then
i thought about you after that day and during december
i don't want to forget i want to always remember
but so quickly i feel small it's so easy just to go
and my insides feel heavy and i never really know
i want to feel light again
i want to feel light again
i want to feel you again



most of the time i feel like i'm standing in a field
and i'm all alone and i can feel the wind
and then i feel real
but it's only in that tiny space of my entire life
can i wake up in the morning and see with my own eyes
and listen to the wind and hear the different tones
of all the other winds like me that feel so alone
that are really free and moving around


and wind that doesn't know the ground
it is bigger than me and i cannot hold it
it is thicker than me and i cannot fold it
it is the words i want to get out so bad
the lies and and the truth
and i cannot control it
i want me and the world to move the same