when dust on the screen makes you sneeze

have you ever heard those wierd noises that pierce and make your ear drums shake. they come from high fives and objects falling. everytime i hear one of those noises i feel like my life starts over again, and that what i was living before was a dream. i am constantly uncomfortable, i feel like i'm always looking for something but i don't know what it is and i have no clues or help to get to it. it's impossible.

i hate it when i'm walking and there's a squishy mud spot and your foot sinks in like 10 inches.

i love it when it's warm outside and it rains. or when there are trees around you and it's raining and the branches protect you from the drops, but the ones that do reach you are lakes because the water has accumulated on the leaf that it fell from.

i want to be able to write something about the way all the lights look from my window. the only thing i can really say is that at night its like an artists took orange and white paint and threw it all over a black canvas. it's messy. i like it.

sometimes i can randomly feel my heartbeat. i guess it's just reminding me that it's still there. sometimes i forget.